Merry christmas and a happy new year.

     If 2014 is anything like 2013...then I rather not be alive.
     They say god give the hardest battle to his strongest solider..... .well I guess I am one of the strongest.
2013 has been one of the hardest of all time considering everything I have been through throughout my life. Even though I struggled there are a few moments worth remembering such as: finishing high school, going to prom, graduating, and attending Johnson and Wales university. On the other hand I've been able to smile to cover up my tears from the pain..physically, emotionally and mentally.  I had to become and adult in a matter of a few week *what do I know about that*. I spent my thanksgiving with my family but unlike a regular family who smiled and laugh around the table as they give thanks for their food, I had to look past the fact that there was no food and gave thanks for just having a family.
     Well since I am sitting here on this Christmas eve expressing how I feel I should just go on and say I will be spending my christmas alone *not looking for pitty, this just prove I am getting stronger*, and looking forward to spending my new years the same. Well  I am happy for whoever is getting gifts tomorrow..be thankful.  The greatest gift I can ask for is to be able to wake up on January 1st still breathing>>>> and hoping my family and I struggles are over and done with

     Well to conclude; I hope everyone have a merry Christmas and a happy New year.
May god be with you and your family.

MAKE IT WORK

when life gives me lemon i make apple juice then sit back and have others wonder how i did that shit.

Think outside the box sometimes!!

stolen "My secret to a happy relationship"

When she stares at your mouth

Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummie cause she thinks shes stronger than you

Grab her and dont let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough

Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet

Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you

Give her your attention

When she pulls away

Pull her back

When you see her at her worst

Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying

Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking

Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared

Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie

Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you

Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time

reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt

Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you

she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands

Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;

bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret

keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes

don't look away until she does

When she says it's over

she still wants you to be hers

When she re posts this note lolz

she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Don't talk about other girls around her

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:

"Whose ass am i kicking baby?" 

 :-)

 
by: kevin

I would break the rules for you, but Im not sure you would do the same

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

College

When i hear this word all i can imagine is; 

• drunk people
• naked people
• parties
• clubs 
• sex
• weed 
• stress.

 Wondering why i mentioned only the negative ones?

Well put it this way, i am not having great experience in college.

there is absolutely nothing to do in this hood that my college is in.

Everyday i wake up all i see is a random guy/girl walking out of a random girl/guy's room, is that even legal?

Its like none gives a fuck about actually learning.

They get drunk every night, smoke every night, and then end up failing their tests.

 

I AM NOT SENDING MY CHILD TO COLLEGE!! LOL

No seriously hopefully the following generation have a little bit more, matter a fact a lot more pride in themselves than the one i happened to be born in. #sadcase

I swear all i want to do is be happy.

just to have something good without thinking it's fake

Mt trust issues are serious...to the point where it kinda ruin everything that ever put a smile on my face.

But then again i cant just not worry..shit like that make you cry yourself a river.

KARMA IS REALLY A BITCH

Don't do something for someone, expecting something in return!

Ever heard that saying?...

Well you should start living by those words.

Well let me tell a little story about myself.

I am the type of person who will give away my ass and shit through my nose, and I do this out of the kindness of my heart, whit a little hope of receiving something in the future if I ever need/want it.

I once went to Wendy's by my old school  and bought everyone food that asked me or was with me.<< not as relevant but just saying

Anyway my point is, it has came to a point in my life where I need like really need something and for some reason no one is there to help. So i start thinking to myself why me? Is KARMA just being a BITCH and just forgot about me? or did it remember me but just remember all the bad things I did rather that the good?

Like wise my questions remain unanswered, But I did learn another lesson and that is God never give you more than you can handle, so just be patient.

Memories don't live like people do!

Dance me if you can.

Lesson

As a child watching movies on t.v, always have a happy ending. For some reason the princess always find his prince and they live happily ever after.
O.K well in reality>> my reality there no prince, I'm a teenager and there will be no ending anytime soon unless i die at a young age, which means i have a long way to go.

Self Explanatory

Every day you live is a lesson learn.

Well today's lesson is:

• Never convince yourself you will tell the truth some other day, do it at the moment.
• One simple lie/misunderstanding can ruin your life...and leave someone hurt.
• Never live your life in the cycle of an eye for an eye, because you will go blind.
• Be cautious of whats said and whats not said.  
   

Scars in a Strange Place

It was 1:00 in the morning and I was laying down quietly. My legs were shivering and my arms folded tightly across my chest. My face mushed against my cousin’s feet allowing only the smell of his cheesy feet to pass my nose. My eyes started tearing up from the breeze coming in from the small holes in the wooden wall right next to the bed. And the sound of the rusty zinc pierced my ears every two seconds. As I lay down, I reminisced about how much as a child I liked sleeping in my aunt’s house. Simply because my cousins were around my age and my sisters were never home. I thought about how much I loved playing with my cousins and telling scary stories to each other before bed.  All of a sudden my memory was interrupted by a coarse cold hand on my leg. Not again I thought to myself. I wondered when this nightmare will be over. A salted liquid touched my tongue, I was no longer tearing up from breeze coming from the hole in the wall. The coarse hand started moving closer and closer to my thigh. I reached for the sheet that was on my cousin’s cheesy feet and pulled it to my face. I started hearing voices in my head “just close your eyes and get it over with, no punk get up and run, maybe you can wait it out and do something tomorrow, no…no I can’t”, All I remembered after the hearing the voices was heavy breathing and hot air in my face. Was it over? The bottom of the hard spring bed where my feet lay wide apart sank, as if a 200 pound man stepped on the bed.

  

                               To be continued!...

Can you imagine living life alone, no one to talk to, no lne for anything...just you.

sometime.

Just promise me you'll run and don't look back!

:)

There will come a time in your life when the only choice you have is to be happy...i feel it coming.

ITS BEEN WHILE

Whats new?
Welll lets seee......im always complaining so lets make this positive
I AM 18 BOYIIIIIII
LOL Didn't really do much celebrating, but i did spend time with the people that love me>>>i think :/
Thats ll that really matter right..well at least that's what i was thought.
What new withchu lol??