TOPAZ VS NAJEDIA

SAMANTHA/NAJEDIA

She look tuff rite??..well ummm newsflash..  apparently this is my soft side.-__- ..i put on a face to protect myself for getting hurt. n call me fake but truthfully no one really kno dis side of me unless u've been in a relationship with me..n if u havent..2 bad u probably wont kno her. 

RAQUEL/TOPAZ

 This is da chick most people know...crazy loud and just dnt give a fuck. not much to say about her up top...other than that  she is the person u will meet if u were ever to meet me.  FYI-this is not the soft side of me :) trust and believe...ill cut a bitch in da blink of an eye so dnt test me

AT THE END OF THE DAY IM ONE PERSON....JUSS HAVE A LOT OF PERSONALITIES ....SO IF U CANT HANDLE ALL OF IT THEN GET LOST ...IF U WANT ME U GOTTA TAKE THE WHOLE PACKAGE OR TAKE NUN.......POINT BLANK :) 

IM NOT BIPOLAR!!

So i really think i need some help...physically mentally n emotionally..
 i though i was bipolar  or i was just going through the stage teenagers go through (that's what i though)
i feel like its time to stop thinking and get  some serious help.
i mean... i know its normal to have a attitude every once in a while, but all the time..nah
i really feel bad when i do something wrong ..like i know I'm doing it but i cant control it and that's what people don't get.
i don't mean to do what i do but but i can't control it, and when i realize it and come to my senses i make it an effort to apologize ..but i don't always come to ma senses!
only if i had someone to talk to!!! (if u know what i mean).. uuugggh 
 what people don't understand is laughing and hyper is like the only way in which i feel like i'm calm and don't have a attitude with anyone but no one take me seriously because i laugh to much ..so i get frustrated .
i stress for the wrong reason and catch attitudes for the least important things.. then i ask myself why?????/??
i get people mad when this happen to me and there is nothing i can do about it...<<>>.this is not called being bipolar<< fyi 
the question is what is wrong with me and who is willing to help me?? 
this shit annoy me ...so i could just imagine how everyone   else around me feel :(  

dead juss becoming sick of life

MY GOAL FOR 5/9/2011

1. Not to let my tempere get the best of me
2. Show lov to those who show love to me
3. TURN a new leaf
4. Practise
5. RESPECT
6. Break no rule
7. Walk the path which is gonna lead me to my future
8. Think positive
9. Prepare for my regent/ talent show
10. PRAY

You'll never leave where you are, until you decide were you would rather be.

MY POOH BEAR!

so why he remind me  so much of myself??  except he the boy version...fyi ..we crazy in da same way...see da color in his hair..surprisingly..i got it 2...we both bipolar n do not like to admit it .

i dnt even kno wen we became so close but  i guess everything happen for a reason. right now he like one of the few people in ma life that actually matter or mean sumn to me,,..even tho he get on ma nerve every now n then..im happy he apart of ma life..hope he always will be n dnt be one of those who walk in to get sumn then walk out 

I LOVE DIS KID <3

CONFUSED!! :/

i dnt kno how to feel about you

i dnt kno if im wasting my time or it true

can u prove me wrong thats all i ask for

i juss wonna see wat it feel like to love and be loved bak

i think im holding my heart bak to protect it from gettin damaged or broken

but how long can i hold it for before it fall n brake on its own

?????

should i set it frees

should i keep holdin it in my protection

should i let u have it...

OR SHOULD I GIVE UP IN SEARCH OF MR.RIGHT??

IM PERFECTLY IMPERFECT!!

I juss wish i could live like a cartoon they seem to get all da attention...all that they want they have ...dammm they juss seem perfect but then again being perfect i think would not be fun.....or maybe is being perfect fun or is it juss a harder life in disguised?/ hmmm

 for my relationships endin the way they did....the annoyance i went through...the struggles i face...i always blame my ex's...not knowin they not he problem...i dnt kno who to blame but im not blaming myself....but juss always seem to fall for ur type..not learnin fro my mistakes...n havin to face the same thing once again...lookin for someone..something to blame...caz im not go blame maself..but i need stop blaming who i dated...caz it aint there fault
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lf8Rj484xGA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a28Igr45oiE

you'LL never kno

never kno wen ur worst enemy gon be become one of u frenz...treat people tha way u want to be treated!!!...becaz karam is a bitch!!!n she always comes bak around!!.

I DNT UNDERSTAND??

i dnt get why people alway get mad if i dnt hi to them....like really..dnt come up to me with your bullshit "u cant say hi to no body" no nigga get the fuck out ma face, the time u wastin askin dat question u coulda said hi....if im da one who always saying hi dnt u think u can say sometimes too..uugghh...wen i need a HI from someone i say it to them so i can get it in return i dnt juss sit n expect to juss get it...y cnt u do it!!!
u sittin waiting for me to say hi to u wen i am wait for u to make a change fa once.
#I AM DONE CARING ABOUT HOW PEOPLE FEEL!!!