TRAUMATIZED

Think i might be scared for the rest of my life....:'(

I try to forget certain things..but it just seem impossible..i tried...but knowing I'm not happy inside...is just damaging me from inside out...

Every time i  try to get myself together.. something happens to hold me back.. 

Every second of my day..i sit and wonder how someone could be so unfair..before i go to sleep..just the though of trusting certain boys..bring tears to my eyes ..and hurt all over ma body..

I realize getting over it will be the best thing....but its not that easy..it will take some time..

I refuse to tell anyone but this specific topic..because..talking about it will not undo what has been done.

Until then I'm going to believe boys were not made to be my friends...and relationships are not for me.