FAKE!!

Trying to pretend I'm OK....putting on a smile on my face....better yet a grin >>>.....feel like I'm holding my pee....but i could only hold it only for a certain amount of hours...and when i get into my room....i let it all out on my pillow in the dark..-_-(tears)
^^who am i staying strong for??... because i think....i know!!  i lost myself in my past...Don't think i could go back there and find what rightfully belong to me..because i would just be hurting myself twice >>back to back